Talented Tanzanian singer Vanessa Mdee has left fans in shock after she announced her premature exit from music.
The Cash Madame hit-singer, who is currently staying in Atlanta, USA, with her boyfriend, American actor and singer, Rotimi, says she decided to quit the music industry because it is “very demonic”.
She made this declaration on her Podcast “Deep Dive with Vanessa Mdee”, stating that she is on a mission to be an advocate for honesty, beauty, and what facing your demons can do to someone.
Though she says that she is highly favoured and blessed, her fans should not expect her doing music or any related events because she has no desire of it anymore.
“I don’t know who needs to hear this, but my mission is to be a light. I know that I would probably disappoint a few people and that’s okay, I know that my fans don’t wanna hear this but guess what am never be too far away from you, trust me. The reason why I had to leave the industry is that I needed to choose my life, the music industry is demonic. People will tell you half-truth about what really goes on, and the truth is I just wanna be an advocate for honesty and beauty and being a sincere advocate for what facing your demons can do for You. Now my fans are probably asking themselves right now; Are you gonna never sing again? Are we gonna never see you perform? Let me reiterate, I love music, I love to create, I love to perform, I’m a vessel, this is what I was brought on earth to be, but maybe I was a vessel to be here in this moment to have gone through everything that I have gone through so that I can tell you most honestly the truth about things you will never somewhere else,” – East African music sensation Vanessa Mdee
Struggle with alcohol
In the podcast, Mdee also talks about family, love, music and battling alcoholism and the difficulties of being an artist in a secular world.
The Wet singer said that for the better part of 2019, she drank herself to sleep and asked people around her to cover up for her.
“I drank myself to sleep every night. I am not proud of it but it is my truth and I know there are people who need to hear this. I was lying to people around me to cover up and to keep the facade alive,” she narrated.
In the podcast, she told her fans that she wanted to let them know the truth because she didn’t want to live a candy-coated life.
“I became a person of horrible choices. I couldn’t recognise myself anymore because I woke up every day trying to just get by and I don’t want to just get by anymore. More than ever, I had moments of anxiety and moments of depression, I had moments of I don’t know what to do next because this pressure is unnatural for a human being. And what comes after that? This may come as a shock to many because I hid it so well but I was depressed and an alcoholic,” she confessed.
Adding that she had a perfect life on the outside, but inside, she was dying.
“This is my truth and me letting you into this space because I don’t want to live a candy-coated life anymore. I became a robot and I have no desire to be a robot or be unhappy anymore, because that’s what I was, unhappy. I had moments of we are enjoying this, I had moments of this is fun, I had moments of this is a beautiful day.”
Last year, while judging East Africa Got Talent show, the singer confessed that she was struggling with clinical blindness after watching a blind man perform.